Here's A Post for You

Wow weee it has been a year since I wrote in this woohoo. Well things had been going well ((I hope so)). Currently I'm in the midst of finishing my finals and soon I'll be graduating from KMPP. Well there's pretty much a lot of things happened here, a roller coaster of emotions, poverty, hardships, imsomnia, but there's this special thing that had happened here.

I used to said to my mom " takdenya la akak nk ada boyfriend kt sini. Mana la sempat nk dating, nk blajar lg, kls dhla hbs lmbt" blablabla and mom said "tkyh la nk ada boyfriend kt sini, kt u nnt bru la cri" never had I been so wrong in my life ahahaha you can guess what was happening aite.

He used to be a friend of mine and we shared the same interests, which are taekwondo and adventure time. One day he saw my phone wallpaper he was like "eh comelnya Finn! Tasha suka adventure time jgk eh?" and then he gave me that Finn and Jake game, which I still have it in my phone till now. We started to get close when we participated in tkd during first sem. Yep that time we were nothing but friends, more like acquaintance. I felt a lil bit awkward bcs he followed everywhere my friend and I go **disclaimer: he was a bfffff of a friend of mine** gradually I liked his attitude and behaviour, the way he treated a lady. Then when I learnt something about him I was like laaa patutla anak mummy rupanya ahhaha.

He used to call me mama cz when I smiled it reminded him of his mummy so I was like okay sure why not and yep there was this phase called "the happy family". I was the mom and guess who was the daddy? My former crush ahaha so lollll. Well things then finally faded away just like that.

Andddd the beginning of sec sem, we were given a task to held a tkd tournament ** disclaimer2: we were not in the same class nor lecture class so we were in diffrent tkd class but under the same lecturer** and yep started from that we began to be close. He was so excited about this thing since he was the president of his class and I was the vice in my class but acted like president since my actual president is out of radar. And so we planned the event, so many things to do, emotional breakdown state etc, we even sacrificed our holiday for this. And this is when things started to get fishy. His bfff used to tell me that he was rarely on the line when he was with his family but in my case, we keep on ws until midnight and he was eager to keep the convo going until the next next next day. But mostly we kept on talking about the event la. And then random things like Deadpool etc. Each time when I talked about work he'll finished talking about it asap and started to change the topic.

And things started to get more and really fishy after the event. I thought that he'll stop ws me as soon the event had finished but nope. He  acted like usual and ws me like we used to be even before the event. One day Kmpp was having Karnival Sains and I was strolling around with my photographer mates, and they'd left me while I was q-ing for the food wuuu. I was being a lone ranger for a few minutes then I bumped into him. We said hi and talked a lil bit and he said he wanted to follow me bcs he can't find his friends so I said okay. Eventually we met a lot of his friends yet he decided to stay with me. That was realllll fishy. And that was the day he became a hero by donating blood. I asked him to go back to his room and rest but he insisted on staying with me. So we were together until the end of the day.

Then there was this day where I went muka tembok and sang infront of ppl ahaha. I told him that I sang (( yep we still ws each other)) and that I was at the waiting alley and he literally came to me just to watch a vid of me singing and in the vid I can see my former crush passed me by and we talked about that, saying that I will not chase him bcs one-sided love just freakin hurt and he told me to just keep my heart. Wot

This was where he started to really show his feelings. He gave me a lot of pickup lines ((mainstream but cute)). There was this day I was having a dinner with my lecture class and we still ws until I got onto the bus heading back to kmpp. We talked about random things, and suddenly he sent me this:
"apa beza tasha dgn klcc?"
"klcc tnggi  ,"
"salah"
"i lg gojes dr klcc"
" hampir btl.
klcc mlysia pnya, tp tasha, cp punya,"
I literally stunned bcs wow yep I was surprised. Seriously.

Out of all the hints he gave that is one of thing that made me so sure that he really did have feelings towards me. On 10/3 he finally confessed saying that he wanted to be more than friends. I hesitated bcs I was scared. Love had been so cruel to me for the past few years and took me awhile before I said yes. Yep. Hukhuk.

We went on our first date. Things went well except until the end of the day, making me hate that day so much but somehow I got over it bcs he said it was his first time having a sushi date. That warmed my heart. He said he was happy spending time watching boboiboy with me, and for that I should be happy too. Yep our first month together was full of shits happening which made my mental koyak rabak yet we managed to overcome it tgt.

He may not be as cool as Johnny Depp nor Ryan Reynolds but he is my fav man afterall. Lets hope for the best okay. I want you to be in my future. In shaa Allah.